Autumn Requiem

I. Voices in my head

Living in a maze without exit
Where nightmare begins after you wake up
Falling into myself has become an addiction
To run away from those who persecute me.

II. Requiem

Fearless child walking once on the surface of the sea
Was your wisdom untrue or has the lie lived through me?
Once burning why do I feel your hands becoming stiff?
Without your laughter and honest heart it's hard to live.

Hopeless heart crucified once at the strange wooden cross
Sacrifice unseen, in which you never believed in
Did it hurt? You were just lying down with your arms spread wide
You didn't scream only begged for vinegar to drink.

He dies everyday from thirst
And waits to be reborn from love
But there is no rebel
To be with him in heaven.

Why don't I want to
Wake up from this
Fucking nightmare!

Live your nightmare
Dream your life
There'll be neither one nor the other
When your cross the borderline.

III. Borderline

Why aren't you sleeping?
I need to find the answer
There's no straight answer really
I wonder is it fate or God making a fool of myself
Neither of them. Do you see the borderline? You've reached it by yourself
My body's standing still but my spirit's so weak
See the land of crawling darkness behind the line
Open your eyes and turn your spirit back from this suicidal voyage
You are strong
I can see there's no answer really.

IV. Suicide Note

(Fear of death
Fear of life
Of my mind
Of fear itself)

An empty room
Abandoned shell
All the books are closed
All the parchment's pure.

The stories unwritten
The greatest curse
Poet bleeds
But cannot sing.

He lies dead
With her corpse
The ink blood
Flows on the pages.

Suicide
And a left note
A quill killed
Sharper than sword.

V. Catharsis

The rain falling slowly
Became my waters of baptism.

VI. Walking through the past

Angels played a rainy ballad on the glass
Their cold shine welcomed me back to life.

But I'm still bleeding
Thunder's fading away
But your memory still remains
A splinter in my heart.

Angels coloured trees with a rain
Their majestic painting comforts me
Heavenly tears have saved my soul.

God saved me
Walk through my past and see the ashes
See a new dawn growing
A rose among the thorns.

But I'm still bleeding
Thunder's fading away
Walk through my past
With your red eyes
Burning the horizon.

Red eyes…

But I'm still bleeding
Thunder faded away.

Will they bring my corpse to you?
With a couple of withered letters
Your hair will become grey one day
And heart so cold as mine.