Awake

Keep in mind I wrote these on what I heard... don't judge too much
(?) means I don't know what he said...
I'm living the dream, no more awake
Listen...
So I got a second chance, not picking that
I was skiing down slope in the cocane avalance
I survived, so I really don't give a fuck
I'm a boss, all swagged up as a hammer fans(?)
Do the hammer dance, call the ambulance and the president
and then the exorcist an then the pastor
What you wanna know? What you wanna hear? What you wanna ask?
'Cause now I don't really have an answer
Got a sick soul, sick mind and a big heart
So when it hurts it bleeds
Liquor and drugs and things that would kickstart
But now I'm finally free
I ain't to blame though I play the game to set the rules
Go ahead kill me and feel me, I ain't got shit to prove
So I keep singing...
I'm living the dream, no more awake
Whatever's on the way, bring it...
Ain't skipping a scene, just let it play
Now you can throw hard, you're in the zone, zone
If you don't go hard, mind aswell go home
I'm living the dream, no more awake
Even if I rise, even if I fall, even when the world is hard to climb on
Even if the red didn't make it to the other side Serenedies(?) mind for the taken(?)
Even if I relapse at a R.E.D would D.I.E oh D
Just someone needs a track of a song that never dies to never D oh D(?)
But ain't nobody really wanna hear that bitching, nobody asking you
Couldn't walk half my road, fill half my shoes and do what I have to do
That's on the daily, when I look at my nephews eyes
And I keep seeing my dear brother and ever since when he died I'm alone
It's like half of me gone
And her call, I don't answer this phone, I don't give a damn what you want
The truth is really I didn't want to have to lie
I'm smiling at the camera thought I want to die like half the time
So now they asking why my chorus is so positive
I'm trying to give myself a reason not to feel the opposite
I've been panic attacking nadick(?) madick(?) the press and man it's a blessing
Answering though nobody ask the question
And with all of that said I'm singing...
I'm living the dream, no more awake
Whatever's on the way, bring it...
Ain't skipping a scene, just let it play
Now you can throw hard, you're in the zone, zone
If you don't go hard, mind aswell go home
I'm living the dream, no more awake
"Red when do you stop it, your topic is the same still"
Not while I'm alive motherfucker, music's my pain pill
Hit 'em with the truth, considered a fool
Never fit in the world but I fit in the rules
Forget it was true thinking I'm a due
When I got to this knife from a friend, shit
I wake up thinking "man I'm alive, damn I survived", hands to the sky
And I'mma stand by your side when you need me
You've been living nightmare, do you belive me?
God took my pain away
Baby drop that razorblade
There be a cop that "jey" today
And baby rock that curkabay(?)
And never stop my burning flames
I keep singing...
I'm living the dream, no more awake
Whatever's on the way, bring it...
Ain't skipping a scene, just let it play
Now you can throw hard, you're in the zone, zone
If you don't go hard, mind aswell go home
I'm living the dream, no more awake
(?) means I don't know what he said...
At least I tried, feel free to correct any mistakes.