Baby Blanket

I don't want to be a bad person anymore
A casualty that casually fought in a friendly war
Now I've seen the light, which makes me worse off than before
And all that's left of what we had is just an empty drawer
When I looked into the mirror I always acted blind
My life became invisible to my distracted mind
Neither of us ever wants to reenact the crime
Now I'd trade my eyes if I could just go back in time
Jesus Christ, how filled with agony can dreaming be?
Hurry mother, carry me back to the screaming sea
Name your price, because I'll do anything that you desire
Hold me under water, put my arms into the fire
It would have been a huge mistake, and wouldn't you agree?
We were making plans to turn our two into a three
The only thing you left behind, you bought just weeks before
Now you're gone and it's the only thing that keeps me warm
You left a baby blanket here with me...
I never thought it'd ever happen but the system crashed
Disembodied voices echoed from the distant past
A fire burned with too much fury for me to try and douse
Now I spend the endless hours in a dying house
Shutters cover windows, wreath was taken off the door
My disappearing body drags my shadow across the floor
I can't tell the rooms apart. Thought I was lost before
A black bird on a wire. Skeleton that washed ashore
Betrayal has a memory. Addictions don't forgive
Hiding from the wild and violent world in which we live
Can't make copies of the keys. Oath that was sworn opposes
It's in the books. Pages cut your fingers. Thrones have roses
With this small reminder every night, I toss and turn
Words I can't remember anymore are lost and burned
The only thing you left behind you bought just weeks before
Now you're gone and it's the only thing that keeps me warm
You left a baby blanket here with me..