Cascading Failures, Diminishing Returns

Vivid depths of hate and despair
Ever doubting mortality
Collecting a myriad of self indulgent experiences
Eventually none will be left to see.

Compulsively building your monoliths on shifting sands
Delusion claiming an autonomy over fetishizing misery
Pain is a wave whose crest never breaks
Endless chasing the synaptic responses to releases of dopamine.

The tide of memory recedes
What's left is arid waste
Where wisdom is an over-acumulation of failures of the past
And of the present.

The future is lost.

The seed of self awareness is a husk
That only seeks to preserve linear thought
The loss and curse of reason patently
Emboldens the suffering that we wreck.

No words exist to cut the threat of time
All actions burned into unbroken lines
A slow descent into dementia
Undermines the will to power.

What's done is done
There's no repentance
For acts of desperation
There is a crack in everything
But no light gets in.

Cascading failures, diminishing returns.