Chaotic

[Verse 1]
I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere
But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared
And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common
But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care

[Pre-Chorus]
You said it looks like I've been going through hell
How did you know? How could you tell?
Ask me to explain myself, well

[Chorus]
I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changing would be this exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause it's been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

[Verse 2]
Don't wanna say it but I really think that I miss him
It might seem stupid but I still look through all of our texts
Who knew that wanting someonе could ever make mе this desperate
Don't think I'll do that again, no

[Pre-Chorus]
You said it looks like I've been going through hell
How did you know? How could you tell?
You ask me to explain myself, well

[Chorus]
I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changing would be this exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause it's been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

[Bridge]
And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no, I can't help it
Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again
Goddamn, I felt it, I really felt it
Maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no, I can't help it
Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget
But damn, I felt it

[Outro]
I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changing could be this exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause it's making me carsick
How could you blame me?