Crystalline

Tell me what to say
And lead me through the shadows
Show me the escape
Where you go I will follow.

I left behind
All that I used to be
So that you'd stay with me.

And you've become
Everything that I need
For my sanity.

How can something so enticing
Have such awful side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal keeps me out of check.

I am fixated
On all of the things
We were together...
But those are fragments
That are better off
Lost forever.

I'm falling apart piece by piece
To shards of what you have made of me
But I've risen above all that I have become
Turned from the pain I was trained to love.

I left behind
All that I used to be
But this time
I did it for me
And you were everything I needed
To set me free.

[I am not going to be scared anymore
I will not run
Nothing will stop me
I am much stronger than you'll ever give me credit for
I won't let you belittle me
You can't hurt me
I am strong
I am fearless
I survived
I'm proud of myself
I love myself
I'm happy
I don't need you
I'm unstoppable
I am brave
I'm a good person
Never again
I did this for me]

If I cut the strings
That held me hostage
Would fall and shatter?
If that's what it takes
To breathe again
Would it even matter?

How can something so enticing
Have such awful side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal keeps me out of check.

I am fixated
On all of the things
We were together
But those are fragments
That are better off
Lost.

And just
How can something so enticing
Have such awful side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal keeps me out of check.

I am fixated
On all of the things
We were together
But those are fragments
That are better off
Lost forever!