FEAR;life

My doors are locked, the lights are off, and I am trembling in fear
I'm alive, but I wish I wasn't here, oh
The rope around my neck has snapped and all I feel is fear
For all the people in my life...I hold dear.

The time is passing way too slowly for me to not feel regret
For all the joy and pain that caused this life to live today but yet
My mind is swimming in the river flowing down into death
But I can't save myself oh why, oh why am I just...such a mess?

Why do I try so hard to live? But I live in fear
Why do I try to find release? When it's just right here
Every day I fall apart and fall back to the start
Why can't I... why can't I... build the courage to...

I'm alone again, my phone is dead and I just dread
Getting up from the edge of my bed, oh
Life's a pill that's hard to swallow
But the pills in my hand...are so much harder when my pain doesn't end.

Ah, why can't I breathe one more time?
And safely say it's my last
Ah, why can't I look myself in the eye?
And say a simple...goodbye.

The trains are passing one by one before I even take a step
And in my ears are just the deafening sound of another breath
Oh, please just let me go, I'm barely hanging by a thread
Why do I strive to sleep? but keep escaping my eternal rest.

Why do I try so hard to live? But I live in fear
Why do I try to find release? When it's just right here
Every day I fall apart and fall back to the start
Why can't I... why can't I... build the courage to...