Her Voices

Looking at you
I see her face
Through all these years
Just waiting
It all catches up on you when you slow down.

I'm back in that yard
Tasting that shame
Of pushing her down
Of kids and their games
Their strongholds.

We had a bigger world
We had a better view
I guess I never fully realized then
What she lost when I cut that loss.

So she filled the void
With unearthly friends
Voices of hers
Greater.

We had a bigger world
We had a better view
I wish she'd never told us about her voices
We were strong, we were much too strong.

(Never forgive) No!
(Never forget) Never forget.

We picked and pierced, we ripped and we tore
We hit and we scratched to make in her a hole
Glares and eyes, whispers and notes
Attached to her every pose.

(We fed her shouts)
(For the collection of her voices)
(I was too weak to collect)
Their ugly truth
Outnumbered by far her beautiful dream
(But so it turned out)
And I closed my eyes
(Was she both paid in soul)
Were her eyes in yours already when we met?
(For the cutting of that loss)
Am I still paying debts to recover life?

Now I can see she proved to be right
As she was called down
It's sad though
That I turned out to be one of her voices.