I Am Not Afraid

All this time all i had was you
Now you're gone and i just never knew
Now i'm out here alone with nobody to trust
And i need you right now, god i love you so much
I just slipped through the cracks and left my life behind
And i don't even know what i'm trying to find
You were my shining star, my guiding light
If i had you now i'd wrap you up so close
And tell you this one lie
I am not afraid.

What have i got to lose?
What have i got to gain?
I keep asking myself as i push through the rain
Why do i even try?
Will i ever defeat all these demons in me?
When i know deep inside
That i am so afraid, i am so afraid.

I gave up my innocence, everything that's me
But there's no rainbow or pot of gold
As far as i can see
So what am i fighting for,
Am i trying to save what i've already lost and i just can't face?
Why did you have to go, i've got so much to say
I just want you to know, i think i'll be okay
And i am not afraid, i am not afraid.

What have i got to lose?
What have i got to gain?
I keep asking myself as i push through the rain
Why do i even try?
Will i ever defeat all these demons in me?
Will i ever believe that i am not afraid?