If Only

Where have you gone old friend lately?
Just a boy in a suit
So much joy to pursue
Have you left me here waiting to grow up on my own?
On this road all alone?
I am a desert of unfulfilled memories
Skeletal pictures of that which will never be
What it is we dream
Lost in the thoughts of what never was
A child in the storm of madness because death calls
Unspoken unseen
If only we hadn't listened
To ambitions that were far beyond our reach
If only there was a way
To take back yesterday
You'd still be here with me
Why oh why
Oh why oh why
If only
You were a second late
To dream about yesterday
Why oh why
Oh why did I?
If only
You never came for me
Where have you gone Willow lately?
Just a girl in a dress
With the world to impress
This morning I could feel the changes
Shadows on the wall
Laughing as we fall
All of my moments are fractured behind me
The toy of a girl that shattered inside of me
All before I said
"I do"
And why does the silence simulate violence
The cold and the quiet screams in defiance
Where did I misstep?
Where did I lose?
If only I had listened
To the voices telling me to take it slow
If only
I had known
Would I have chosen another road?
Oh if only I could let go
Why oh why
Oh why oh why
If only
If only I could be home
Oh why oh why
If only
If only
If only I had never gotten a letter
If only I had never wanted for better
If only I didn't stay up at night and miss you
If only I didn't feel like I feel when I'm with you
If only I was never lonely
And felt the city calling my name
If only I was never lonely
If only I never came
Why?
Why?
Why oh why
Oh why oh why
If only
I never fell in love with you
If only
If only.