In Denial

In denial, no my life's a trial
I'm not denying that every
little bit hurts
It's a problem that I'm not solving
Don't mind admitting
I feel like quitting this job
For a while getting away
Before it gets any worse today.

You're in denial, and that is final
You're not admitting
You should be quitting all these
Queens and fairies
And muscle Marys
The rough trade boyfriend
Who in his pathetic own way
Denies he's gay
Why can't you see
This is a fantasy world.

Think I'm going mad
How'd you know if you're going mad
Look at me I'm lonely
Look at me I'm sad.

I'm not denying
I could be trying
A little harder
To deal with some of this stuff.

Know what I'm thinking
Less drugs and drinking
No cigarettes and you'd feel
A little less rough.

Is that enough
My life is absurd
I'm living it upside down
Like a vampire
Working at night and
Sleeping all day
A dad with a girl
Who knows he's gay
Can you love me anyway.