I remember when I was taken away.
It's in my mind and there it will stay.
It plays like a record, everyday
The look on mums face when I was carried away.
The expression she had cause she had nothing to say.
It makes me angry even to this day.
I mean, I was given one call a week
and even when I call her I could barely speak.
I couldn't find the fucking words to say
So I sat there and listened to her babble away.
I tell you what though it was good to hear her voice
I wanted to see her yeah but I didn't have a choice.
So the call was like a gift from god
Even though that was all that I got
I mean, all I wanted was a visit
That's not to much to ask for or is it
I was a kid I didn't need that shit
and everywhere I went I was chucking a fit
It's hard to let go but I try to forget
And the longer I do the fucking harder it gets
So please, take me back in time
and if you can't do that than erase my mind.
There's nothing there I really want to remember
Except one time way back in December
The only moment I'd make last forever
The last time me and mum were together.
That one moment is almost perfect
And going back to that will always be worth it.
You can knock me down, to the ground.
But when I get back up know that I'll stand proud.
To this day I am still trying to find a family
who isn't always pretending to understand me.
I never knew that it could be so hard
it's lie im blind folded trying to paint a piece of art.
and people say if I try than I might see
a hundred other people just like me
but at the end of the day it doesn't make any sense
and it feels like im blocked by a giant fence
and if I could id paint you a picture
fold it up, and let you take it with ya
I guess instead of finding something else
I should stop and search for myself.
I still remember when my family fell apart
it's in my mind and left me scarred.
So I wonder how long this shit will last
I can't wait to leave it all in the past
And everybody always wants to stand taller
But in the end you just make yourself smaller
and when you feel like you try and fail
keep it up and you will prevail
And that's the point you can't give in
You gotta fight what your feeling within
Sometimes it might seem a little pointless
and hard to see what the point is
But that's what I've been doing for 20 years
and im still over coming all of my fears
just remember you're never alone
you're always guided by the essence of home
You can knock me down, to the ground.
But when I get back up know that I'll stand proud.
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