La Rossa

Lacking sleep and food and vision
Here I am again encamped upon your floor
Craving sanctuary and nourishment
Encouragement and sanctity and more
The streets seemed very crowded I put on my bravest guise -
I know you know that I am acting I can see it in your eyes.

In the harsh light of freedom I know that I cannot deny
That I have wasted time have frittered it away in idle boasts
Of my freedom and fidelity when simpler words
Would have profited me most
It isn't enough in the end when I'm looking for hope.

Though the organ monkey screams
As the pipes begin to spit
Still he'll go through the dance routines
Just as long as he thinks they'll fit
Just as long as he knows that it's dance smile...or quit.

Like the monkey I dance to a strange tune
When all of these years i've longed to lie with you
But have bogged myself down in the web of talk
Quack philosophy and sophistry
At physicality i've always baulked
Like the man in the chair who believes it's beyond him to walk
I've been hiding behind words fearing a deeper flame exists
Faintly aware of the passage of opportunities I have missed.

But the nearness and the smell of you
La Rossa from head to toe....
I don't know what I'm telling you
But I think you ought to know:
Soon the dam wall will break soon the water will flow.
Though the organ-monkey groans
As the organ-grinder plays
He's hoping at the most
For an end to his dancing days
Still he hops up and down on his perch
In the usual jerky way...
Though this might mean an end to all friendship
There's something I'm working up to say.

Think of me what you will:
I know that you think you feel my pain--
No matter if that's just the surface
If we made love now would that change all that has gone before?
Of course it would there's no way it could ever be the same...
One more line crossed one more mystery explained.

Now I need more than just words
Though the options are plain
That lead from all momentary action
If we make love now it will change all that is yet to be...
Never could we agree in the same way again
One more world lost one more heaven gained.

La Rossa you kow me you read me as though I am glass
Though I know it there's no no way in which I can pass...
Though it means that you'll finish my story
At last I'd trade all the clever talk the joking the smoking
And the quips all the midnight conversations all the friendship
All the words and all the trips
For the warmth of your body
The more vivid touch of your lips.

All bridges burning behind me
All safety beyond reach...
The monkey feels his chains out blindly
Only to find himself released.

Take me take me now and hold me
Deep inside your ocean body
Wash me as some flotsam to the shore
There leave me lying evermore!
Drown me drown me now and hold me down
Before your naked hunger
Burn me at the altar of the night -
Give me life!