Near Life Experience

If I showed my hand shaking like a leaf
You might not understand but I bet you'd believe
This bat is inside crawling around
The cobwebs in my mind that I try to drown out.

You said I look like a ghost man I almost was
You said I need to let go quit chasing that buzz
That picture in time frozen like ice
That girls keep repeating beating me down to size.

Well maybe I'm blind just throwing darts in the dark
I didn't get what I want I got what I need
Man it hurts like hell down here on my knees
Is this where I end or is this where we begin?

The night is my friend I blend in with the best:
The vampires the crooks the felons and the rest
Now we can pretend that we really care less
And act like we love what we really detest.

Well maybe I'm blind just throwing darts in the dark
I didn't get what I want I got what I need
Man it hurts like hell down here on my knees
Is this where I end or is this where we begin?

Make this go away I'm begging please-
There's little life left here for me to bleed
Is this where I end or is this where we begin?

I'm looking up but I'm feeling down
Since I'm cutting these corners was cutting me down to size.

Am I losing control or losing my mind?
I know for a fact I'm losing my last place to hide.

Well maybe I'm blind just throwing darts in the dark
I didn't get what I want I got what I need
Man it hurts like hell down here on my knees
Is this where I end or is this where we begin?

My pulse is racing I can't catch my breath
This near-life experience scared me to death
Is this where I end or is this where we begin?

Or is this where we begin?