Oceans

I learnt to let go when I was younger
Scared of growing old
I would swim far into the ocean
And Try to stay afloat
Until my lungs would cough up water
And Sand would coat my bones & I hope
That someday i'll open up the floodgates
And Let the lyrics flow
Someday i'll understand the dry taste
When the words are trapped below
Some days I wonder if my airway
Is clogged with all the quotes that I wrote...

I feel worthless
Maybe I should open the drawer
Burn the pages
Write poems with the ash on the floor
Pour the ink into the sink
And Watch it drain from the shore...

I don't want love no more
Though it's the one thing i've been searching for
Though it's the one thing that I miss the most
Now I'm afraid to be alone...

I learnt to grow old when I was younger
Scared of staying young
Afraid of the thoughts that I had conjured
That sat atop my tongue
Knowing I'd change the worlds opinion
If they would just listen up...
But they won't now...

I feel worthless
Maybe I should open the drawer
Burn the pages
Write poems with the ash on the floor
Pour the ink into the sink
And Watch it drain from the shore.

I don't want love no more
Though it's the one thing i've been searching for
Though it's the one thing that I miss the most
Oh I'm afraid to be alone...

Looking in the mirror like
Maybe I will find myself tonight
I ask for a better mind
Then tap into the site through my third eye
I had never realized
I thought I had a chosen my design
I thought I was broken all this time.

I don't want love no more
Though it's the one thing i've been searching for
Though it's the one thing that I miss the most
Oh I'm afraid to be alone.