Old Friends

I just tried to write some shit up on some happy
Shit but fuck that shit cuz I ain't happy now
I must tried about a billion times to come
Nicely fuck you now cuz now happy hour
You gon pay the full price til mine go down
I won't call ya back and I won't fly ya mail
Couple friends a bad chick who fine as hell
That's all I need it's just that and saliva
Don't know what caused the pain or what it was
Maybe the fighting and yelling and such
Stayed getting high my guy lickin on blunts
I just wanted acceptance and someone to love
The same one I was
With night they had me in cuffs
Was the same one who tried to
Put knife in my guts
That divided the crew but none of us grew up
I was drinking so much that I shit myself once
Nowadays got other vices I'm dealing with
Powerplays blocked up by others' opinions
Sorries go out to like all of my women friends
Can't find the line where the love ends
And hate begins
Know I need faith but align the atheists
Stroll through the these streets feel like
I am an alien
Instead of coin rather love that they pay me in
Play me and I'm at ya place with a bayonet
Fit with the vision
You don't it's incisions I'm sick with division
A rhythm a tick cuz I'm sick in a kitchen
I'm licking on fingers and dickin a chicken
Never again will I give em additions
If don't u subtract shit when shit I'm in trenches
If this all u all witnessed then quit
With the mentions
I'm sorry to my old friends I don't keep in touch
Don't take this here the wrong way I ain't givin up
I'm laid up with this work
Don't think it it's just the summer
Ain't try to see you hurt
But I'll be gone til november
My brother knows thats I dont call enough
He pray I call before the coroner
My wifey says my boy is growing up
Why dont you spend the day both of us
Like these when I see a friend
How the conversation start?
Sorry dawg I forgot to check the messages
Like see everybody go and change once
They get a bit of fame black moss
Be the same what the difference is
I'm always at the office
Contemplating trading all the options
Player making moves the profit
You know I cant afford to break a promise
Promise to my first born son
I'ma never see you starving
Im losing friends
Friends I made back when I had a benz
Now this shit making a lot of sense
People walk out when the movie ends
You know people walk out
When the movie ends
I hope they know they not up in the credit
Then I tried to reconcile but it was evident
I got way too much pride to be trying to beg
I made some lemonade
Married to my dreams until I get a piece
I need the pie I got a family to feed
I'm sorry if your ego will not let you see
If there was giving up to do it wasn't me
I'm sorry to my old friends
I don't keep in touch
Don't take this here the wrong way
I ain't givin up
I'm laid up with this work
Don't think it it's just the summer
Ain't try to see you hurt
But I'll be gone til november