Paid In Full (Live)

I was nowhere near ready when all it ended
So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you.

You gave me the chance, time and again, in vain
Now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full
Break the chain, but no longer can I take the pain.

It's hard for me to love myself right now
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you.

Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak
So I can only blame myself for this state we are in
I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
Did you change? I did too. Love can grow from the last grain.

It's hard for me to love myself right now
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on...

You...
I need you...less and less
Every day feeds this moral decay
Yet I have grown to love you even more.

I fall back, and I turn another cheek
You mouth the words you're not ready to speak
You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue
That I'd become so much stronger than you.

I will take - what you have for me now, if it's not too late
If you like, I will leave; I will not miss the last train again.

It's hard for me to love myself right now
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you.

It's hard for me to love your face right now
I'm waiting, hating, needing being.

Me...
I need you...less and less
Every day leads us farther away
From that moment.

It hard for me to hate myself right now
Finally I'm understanding me
One day we may have whole new me's and you's
But first I need to learn to love me too.