Path Of Endless Grief

Path of endless grief.

Opportunities vanishing
One door closes
Others close as well
Whispers in my head
Misleading…
Uncovered truths
Ignored by others
Seconds feel like an eternity
A step forward, the moment I feel my emotions
Breathe…

Crying seems to be the only way to process grief
I feel alone, even when I am surrounded by people.

Distorted voices
Cryptic metaphors
The thin line between
Nightmares
And reality
Blurred.

A moment of joy
Is short-lived
Another step forward
I plunge into a deep mental abyss.

Screams, not mine, or are they?
I am going insane…
Or am I already?
At least sorrow is a constant.

How can I face my past
When I am not understood
By others?
How?

Another internal split later
At my last gasp
With all my hatred
I accept my fate and the fate of my only loved one.

I intentionally shut the door behind me
And move forward into nothingness
Knowing the consequences and
The possibility of a new beginning.

Path of endless grief
Path of endless grief.

Opportunities vanishing
One door closes
Others close as well
Whispers in my head
Misleading…