Please, Don't Wait Up

Please, don't wait up
I was a mess
When you came to me
I thought impossible,
It's like a fairy tale
I'm taught to fight
Put up a wall
It felt unnatural
To be so chill with you
This happiness is cruel
Inside my mind I was going insane
But on the outside I felt calm, no pain
Please don't wait up
Please don't wait up
I leave the light, it's on for you
But really it's for me, oh
Please don't wait up
Please don't stay up
I leave the light, it glows for you
But really it's for me
To find my way home
Drunk on this love
I still had a job
It broke my heart when I
Had to be late again
Wish I could tell you
What I do when you're asleep
So no, I can't
I need you to be pure
My haven and my cure
Under the bed, there a box with bullets
Above the shower, there's a gun, I use it
We live a lie, you don't know me, it's appalling
It's my fault, for leading you on
This will end once I am done with
All the loose ends with this corpse
In time for some dinner and dance
Leave me alone.