Private Conversation

An obvious connection
I tried so hard to hide
Couldn't even say it to myself
An obvious connection
I tried to push aside
Into a corner
On the darkest shelf.

We'll never be alone
And my feelings can't be shown
So I try to imagine and replay
All the things
I'll never get to say
You're wrapped up with another
Tangled and entwined
I invent a separation
In the private conversation
In my mind.

I resolve to say it all
Then I hem and haw and stall
For how could I come clean
Or confide
Someone else
Is always at your side.

I want
I want
I want to tell you
I want
I want
To get you alone
I need
I need
I need to tell you
I want you for my own.

If we could steal a moment
Would you be so inclined
To accept an invitation
To the private conversation
In my mind.

What do you want to say to me, Terry?
Tell me, this is your chance
What do you need to say to me, Terry? Does it concern romance?

Here I am
All alone
Yours to take
Smooth me out
Calm me down
Stop the ache.

Don't hold back
Don't hold off
Hold me tight
Don't object
Let's connect
Let's unite.

But you can't lose your shadow
That tie you can't unbind
You've made us all alone now
All alone
But only in my mind.

A mind is very private
We often meet in mine
Let me show you what we do there
The way we kiss
The way we intertwine.

I want
I want
I want to show you.

Show me what?
I want to show you desire
The heat
The flames
I'm burning for you
I know you are on fire.

Why not be bold?
I'm crazy about you
I say it with every glance
My arms are cold
And lazy without you
Come on
Why don't we dance?

I want
I want
I want to keep you
Keep me where?

I want you all for my own
My own
My own
You have to share me
Oh no
I want you alone.

I imagine us so well
How you'd dance and taste and smell
I can imagine
Me with you
But I don't have the guts
To follow through
You're one half of a couple
That's how you are defined
And my only consolation
Is the private conversation
In my mind.