Resigned To Be Lived

Hey you, my loser son
You see your sins if you are alone
Would you need to walk on your own?

When there is no movement here
The future seems to disappear
Won't you ever feel the strings… of love?

You wait and I am cold
Frozen like a winter storm
Do I really stay so lost?

I catch your generous smile
While I hide along my trail
Turn down these walls I've built… with bad blood.

I slide along these rails I drew
cause I fear my voice on you.

I trust that my being will be safe in my old shell
Where the toll is so pricey that you cannot pay
I would want to believe that this bad dream
Wasn't true… but my mind… but my mind.

I slide along these streets like meat
Crawling into a crusher meat
I cannot love anymore… with threads severed
My figure sculpts behind the cross
Because now I loved it all.

I cannot buy to you the whole world… there is nothing more meager
There is no greater contempt… because, now, I gave it all.

I cannot drink from your cup… there is no only one
There is too much for three times… because, now, now I choked.

Hey you, my useless son.