Shadow Burn

It all started with a dream
And a wish to be free
And a reason to be loved
How lonely it can be
In a room where my love is supposed to be
At night the feline cries your name
Now I'm lost
And she adopted your beginning to an end
I whispered sick words to a sick God's head.

Jannelle
I need you to kiss me to sleep
With limbs entwined.

I'm high again
I'm lost in my mind.

Writing suicide notes for relief
I purge my brain of graceless thoughts
One day I'll get to you.

Night finds me when vulnerable
Send me to Hell
If you're real
The world will never know the pain your heart held
And that suffocates me.

I hear my demons
"Suicide. Suicide"
I need my demons
Who am I without lies?

No
You listened and held me
Cradled my weakness
In your arms I was a child again
Beauty incarnate
A face I could never dream
This world will never know your pain
I'll be your voice, I'll scream your name.

I need my people here alive to be kind
I want my freedom here for life
Shadow burn.

I whispered sick words to a sick God's head
If I could kill us both
I would.