Sleep Paralysis

Somebody, pinch me, I can't wake up
It's hard to breathe, the body is numb
Dusk in my eyes
I sleep paralysed
All hope was left to die
In the rays of the setting sun
Now it's dark in my heart
I haven't drunk, but I am not really sober
Seeking a way out of this dream world
It is filled with gloomy thoughts and cheerless ghosts
Every breath here is like a poison
Which gets deep inside
Destroying the mind
I sleep paralysed
All hope was left to die
In the rays of the setting sun
Now it's dark in my heart
My eyes are closed, but I've never seen so clear
The real world seems so beautiful from here
But I look at it through a crack in the closet
Afraid of the phantom monster to get closer
It's hard to breathe, the body is numb
Please, somebody, pinch me, I can't wake up
Dusk in my eyes
I sleep paralysed
All hope was left to die
In the rays of the setting sun
Now it's dark in my heart
After a slight moment of relief
It started talking to me again
Such a nice move
So shameless and rude
Did you really think I am a fool
You're a crook
You promised to love me
To cherish, to look after me
But instead you just betrayed me
And left me alone to rot in oblivion
This is so sad
Cause you were my best friend
Who dared to spit in my face
So watch now how the true king of depression dances
On your grave
On your dirty grave
Instead of taking my hand, you just spat in my face
So watch now how the true king of depression dances
On your grave
On your, on your dirty grave
But wait... Do you really think I want to be a burden
Which you'll carry through your life complaining about a cruel fate
Not to see the light as if I shouldn't have been born
Nothing would be worse than being alone
Always be a reason for bitter tears
Stand shyly aside so no one can see us
Be as quiet as the grave as if keeping a dark secret
No, I don't! So, listen here
I would rather walk on green grass with my bare feet
Feeling warm sunbeams and slight breeze on my shiny skin
I wish I could smell a forest after summer rain
Or look at the stars, lying by an evening lake
I would love if you could take me as I am
Not judging me too harshly, pushing me away
Then I would go with you together to the very end
Not arguing, but hand in hand
Then even the sky wouldn't be the limit
The heat of the sun wouldn't burn our wings
All the seven seas would be up to our knees
And a fair wind would always blow in our journey
As strange as it may sound like
I want you to both stay and go away
But it's up to you to decide
It's either now or never
My eyes are still closed, but I've never seen so clear
The real world has always been here
But I looked at it as if being frozen with fear
Listening to the voice at the other side of the mirror
It tried to wake me up this morning, warning anxiously
It could be just a dream in a dream
I sleep paralysed
All hope was left to die
In the rays of the setting sun
Now it's dark in my heart
I couldn't stay and reach out my hand
I couldn't turn my back and go away
I was there alone
Please, somebody, pinch me, I can't wake up
It's hard to breathe, the body is numb
Dusk in my eyes.