Small Scars

I want to dream again
Oh how I long to be led by a voice within
But if it's all in my head then I'll live while I'm living and rest when I'm dead
It's not that bad.

But I can't help losing sleep
When I'm lonely and in too deep
Oh the secrets I can't keep
I'm sorry darling
Damn, you're gorgeous but you're not for me
So I'll drift through another night
I'm not great but I feel alright
Though it tears me up inside to know I'm only getting lonelier as days go by.

I'm losing steam again
I started thinking I'm happy with where I am
But I'll hang in the gallows for being so damn shallow
And I'll admit there were better times
I held you close as we slept on your parents' bed
And I was dreaming of falling in love but I knew it was all in my head
I was just desperate enough to pretend.

But I can't help losing sleep
When I'm lonely and in too deep
Oh the secrets I can't keep
I'm sorry darling
Damn, you're gorgeous but you're not for me
So I'll drift through another night
I'm not great but I feel alright
Though it tears me up inside to know I'm only getting lonelier as days go by
To know our struggles get more difficult the harder we try
To know I'm hanging by a thread and barely getting by.

So you take me home
Take a drink and take me out of these clothes
I've been on my own for far too long.

But I won't lose sleep over someone I wouldn't want to keep around me
So forget about me
And if I had the chance to glance upon her one last time
Well I'd turn and look away
And if I had the chance to walk beside her one last time
Well I'd turn and walk away.