Sometimes

Sometimes it's not me, it's just a vague fear
And a bleeding doubt that haunts me
It takes me over, gets me all out of control
That's when I give it all
And still I face the wall of your defenses.

Sometimes I'm willing, to drift and wander
In the shadow of this feeling
Right out of balance, like a kite without a tail
If it could only avail
When all attempts do fail to break the fences.

But all my hopes are trains
On condemnation's rails.

Steaming through the pain
I only seem to feign but never heal
Tried so hard in vain
Failed time and time again but now I feel
This is the final call.

It won't be easy to start a new life
Burying past times, burning bridges
Against the icy winds of sorrow and dismay
It won't be easy but this is the only way
I have to deal with this.

Now all my hopes are trains
On condemnation's rails.

Steaming through the pain
I only seem to feign but never heal
Tried so hard in vain
Failed time and time again but now I feel
This is the final call.