Spirit Breaker

Staring at the walls to pass the time
Pinch myself make sure I'm still alive
I'm not alright
It's become a disguise
Friends and family, I'm losing all ties
Staring at the walls to pass the time
Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive
I've been here before
I will survive another month under gray skies
I'm holding on as a tight as I can
The monotony never seems to end
Every day feels the same
Every day I think about the place I'd rather be than here
I've been here before
I will survive another month under these grey skies
We've carried each other through and over the seas
We live for nights like this
The ones we won't forget. I hope to open my eyes to see this picture
I'm throwing it all away. I hope to open my eyes to see this moment that I should treasure forever.

Staring at the walls to pass the time
Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive
I'm not alright
It's become a disguise
Friends and family, I'm losing all ties
I'm holding on as tight as I can
Coming home, I don't know when
I'm holding on as tight as I can
I swear
My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday
How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way
Seventeen down, seventeen to go
That's not so bad, right?
I think of home often and of you even more
Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two
For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by
Maybe that was enough
Thank God, I needed that
I surely needed that.