Struggle Of The Soul

[Verse 1 (LJ): ]
Yeah
I've been struggling lately, forbidden fruit eaten in secret just taste so sweet
I felt the disconnect seeking you to hold me, if I'm really saved, why I'm feeling like the old me
They watching closely, seeing how the son step, walking in light until I see sunset
To tell the truth, I'm so sick of your judgement, but what if its me misunderstanding what love meant
Let's say I'm floating down a river, me and my boy, and up ahead I can see the waterfall
Is it judging if I'm running yelling something, telling him to turn his side to save his life, not at all
But what if it's flipped and I'm saying it's me
Got the homies in the seed and say they praying for me
But, I can see the Flame, wishing I'da listen to you
But if I ain't got Clear Sight, how can I give em the truth?
(I don't know)

[Chorus (Anthony Valor):]
No, I...
Don't know where I should go from here
Lord, why...
Am I always feeling so froze from fear?
I know you gotta plan but it's hard to understand what you're doing
Still going through it, for real, yeah
This confusion I'm feeling...
Is a Struggle of the Soul.

[Verse 2 (LJ): ]
I'm in need of some prayers, so y'all should pray for me
Cause as of lately, things ain't been going great for me
Prolly cause I wandered off, I swear it wasn't blatantly
I'm sorry, God, I just need you to wait for me
I'm only human I could never be perfect
This life you've given me, I know I don't deserve it
I didn't always take the opportunity worship
You'd see me struggle if you looked behind the curtains
Im worthless, at least that's how I'm seeing me
I'm reminded daily that you really do believe in me
But, why? What could you ever see in me?
When I see myself I'm hating what I seem to be
I'm the chief sinner, worst of men, and disgrace
It's been a fight for me to read my word or pray
I wanna stay strong but all I seem to do is stray
I might as well quit, man, I'm done with this race.

[Chorus (Anthony Valor):]
No, I...
Don't know where I should go from here
Lord, why...
Am I always feeling so froze from fear?
I know you gotta plan but it's hard to understand what you're doing
Still going through it, for real, yeah
This confusion I'm feeling....
Is a Struggle of the Soul

[Verse 3 (Dre Murray):]
Some of my best friends ducking and dodging, can't even step in garages
Won't let me see where they lodging, or who they lodging with
Feel they'll get hit with barages while I'm pointing their collages
Serving a third degree like, who is this you lounging with
Your posturepedic will suddenly turn to prison
Ironically deleted your upright position
Laying prostrate but details I won't mention
The lust is like a rope unveiled, it's your linching
And you hang there, feel the pain there
From positive to unsure all in the same year
All in the same breath, you lost your step
And now your rep is laying in the flames here
Burned to pieces, dust to ashes
Air bags are released only after it crashes
Headed right into a head on collision
But please turn back baby boy, your forgiven, stick to the mission.

[Chorus (Anthony Valor):]
No, I...
Don't know where I should go from here
Lord, why...
Am I always feeling so froze from fear?
I know you gotta plan but it's hard to understand what you're doing
Still going through it, for real, yeah
This confusion I'm feeling...
Is a Struggle of the Soul.