The Castle

I take too many pills
I write too many songs
People say it's gonna kill me
I say I'm gonna let it.

I'm gonna let it lay me down
On the bed I've made
Day by day
Day by day.

I take too many hits
I take whatever comes my way
Oh, this world is gonna kill me
And I'm gonna let it.

‘Cause it's gonna keep on tearing me down
And I'm too weak to fight back
Anyway
Anyway.

And oh, if I had a castle I would
Lock the door
‘Cause I don't wanna let anyone in
Anymore
Anymore.

I take too many mints
From the restaurant's front desk
‘Cause oh, God, it would killl me
If I went to whisper under my breath
And all my secrets came seeping out
Of my rosy lips I painted so carefully
Carefully.

And oh, if I had a castle I would
Not put my name on the door
‘Cause I don't want anyone to know about me
Anymore.

I don't want anyone to see me
I don't want anyone to need me
I don't want anyone to try to be me
‘Cause oh God, why would you do that?

I don't want anyone to want me
I don't want anyone to place their love
Upon me like a gift
As if I'm supposed to be grateful.

And I don't want anyone below me
I don't want anyone to know me
I don't want anyone above me
I don't want anyone to love me
Love me.

And oh, if I had a castle I would
Bury myself beneath the floor
‘Cause I don't really care for this life
Anymore.