The Cry Of Silence

Filled with sorrow
Bleak inner self touched by pride
Devoured by solitude, still wrapped in time
Flowing pain.

Holding myself back in suspicion
And lingering in the dust
The dust of my abandoned remains
Killed with the dagger of life!

Such an exquisite pride in my suffering
Alone, all alone with the emotional
Streams of my soul
So real, so pure... Yet i'm left aside
Entangled in fear... Without hope.

Raped by the light of the world
Scorned, left behind and broken down.

I am truly left alone
But somehow... Just somehow
It feels like my loneliness is a victory
Over the self-delusion of joy... And happiness.

My heart beats faster
The anguish becomes clearer
And my misanthropic view gets stronger
Living in the shadows
So proud of being the one
But desperate
So desperate for a helping hand
Do I really want to live this life?

I have a thousand reasons to die
And many millions of tears to cry... In silence
The human plague has emtied my life
And I curse the day I was born... To this world!

Still, no-one else I ever want to be
And no-one else I intend to be
'Cause no-one else I was meant to be!

I need, I want, I long for my retribution
I need, I want, I yearn for my retribution
I want my retribution... I want it now!

Unity; a gathering of open wounds
Of dark... Of dark clean spirits
What a dream... What a dream so distant!
Why should I... Why should I be alone
When I love... When I love my brotherhood?
Shall I die... Shall I die to be free
When I cry... When I cry in silence
So please let me die in silence
Oh my god, let me die in silence!