The Life I Never Led

Mary robert:
I've never talked back,
I've never slept late,
I've never sat down
When told to stand straight
I've never let go
And gone with the flow,
And don't even know, really, why.
I've never asked questions,
Or taken a dare.
I've never worn clothes
That might make people stare.
I've never rebelled,
Or stood up and yelled,
Or even just held my head high.
And all of the feelings unspoken,
All of the truths unsaid,
They're all i have left
Of the life i never led.
I've never gone surfing,
Or ran with a crowd.
Or danced on a table,
Or laughed much too loud.
I've never quite dared
To leave myself bared -
I've just been too scared i might fall,
I've never seen paris,
Swum naked,
Been kissed.
I've never quite realised
Just how much i've missed
And what did i get
For hedging each bet?
Another regret, and that's all.
And all of the wishes unasked for,
All of needs unfed -
They're all that remain
Of the life i never led.
And now...
Now that you've given me one
Little taste of it -
And now...
Now that i know what i know -
Well how...
How can i go on ignoring the waste of it?
After all of the years
That i've clung to my fears.
Won't you help me let go?
Help me let go!
I want to be brave,
I want to be strong.
I want to believe
I'm where i belong.
To stand up and say
"i'm seizing the day"
To not just obey, but to choose.
And i may not surf,
I may not see france.
But i want to know
I still have the chance.
And maybe i'll make
A painful mistake.
It's mine though, to take or refuse.
And all of the doors yet to open,
All of the rooms ahead -
They're beaconing bright,
Scary and new -
But i'm standing tall,
And i'm walking through.
What's gone may be gone,
But i won't go on
Playing dead!
It's time to start living
The life i never led.