The Search (Live)

It's worth it though
Cold world out there kids grab your coats
Been a minute I know now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid I admit it I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me I'ma have to crack your nose
For crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope you seen it
You seen it
Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces yeah
That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying and
Where'd the beat go
Oh ain't that somethin'
Drums came in you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame and it pumped my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face clean up my vomit
OCD tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it now y'all done it
I can be critical never typical
Intricate with every syllable I'm a criminal
Intimate but never political pretty visual
Even if you hate it I'll make it feel like you're in it though
You call me what you wanna but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' this cinematic is beautiful
Man I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos