Alone

Once again life is killing me
This time I know there's no way back
Left alone, abandoned
Without any chance in tomorrow.

You're gone forever
As I try to find a reason for this
Endlessly wondering why
You burned away all I was living for.

Remembrances are all I still own of you
As I lie in my bed, drunk, confused
Flashes of our past passing before my eyes
Just like dying, endlessly dreaming of you.

Dreaming of forgotten words and smiles
Trying to push away the need to harm myself
I feel is growing deep inside of me
I feel I will have to carve this pain upon my skin.

Loneliness arises from the past
I will not bear this torment longer
As I try to hide the painful tears
Frustration increases in my soul.

Reminding when I felt so high
Feeling nausea in my lungs, suffering
I try to sleep to heal this madness
But this bed now seems to be like my tomb.

Now I know it's all too late to save me
I keep on dreaming of past years
I can't feel that warmth anymore
You turned my existence in a terminal disease.

I know all I once called life ends today
As you disappear forever, flying far away
All emotions inside of me are dead and gone
I can't stand this silence, but now I'm alone
I'm alone.

Where have you gone when I needed you?
Never again.