Deja Vu

[Ver1:]
As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict traits
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the NyQuil like 'I think I'll just have a taste'
Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium like yeah that's great
I go to take just one and I end up like having eight
Now I need something in my stomach cuz I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd think that with all I have at stake
Look at my daughters face
'Mommy somethings is wrong with dad I think
He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me
Wont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat'.

[Chorus:]
Sometimes I feel so alone
I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me
Soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like Déjà Vu, I wanna get away from this place I do
But I cant and I wont say I tried but I know that's a lie cuz i don't
And why I just don't know.

[Ver2:]
Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer
Thats the devil in my ear I been sober a fuckin year
And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin hear
'Marshall come on we'll watch the game it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers'
And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed for half of the time
Who's that mastermind behind that little line
With that kind of rational man I got half a mind
Too have another half of glass of wine sound asinine, yeah I know
But I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall
I missed the couch and down i go looking like a bouncing ball
Shit must have knocked me out cuz I didn't feel the ground at all
Wow what the fuck happened last night where am i
Man fuck am i hungover and god damn i got a head ache
Shit half a vicodin why cant I
'All systems ready for take off please stand by'.

[Ver3:]
So I take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahh
A couple weeks go by it aint even like im getting high
Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah im getting by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
Oh ya theres an excuse you lose Proof so you use
There's new rules it's cool if it's helping you to get through
It's twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze
What else is new fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes
Now here I am three months later full blown relapse
'Just get high until the kids get home from two holmes relax'
And since im convinced that I'm insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day lets see
That's an Ambien each nap, how many valium? Three
And that will average out to about one good hours sleep
Ok so now you see the reason how come he
Has taken four years just too put out an album b
See me and you we almost had the same outcome Heath
Cuz that Christmas you know the pneumonia thing
It was bologna was it the methadone ya think
Or the Hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tape cases with you Ambien CR great places to hide ain't it
So you can lie to Haley, I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Elaina
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in an ambulance
They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn!