I'm Trying

She said I'm not pointing fingers
He said yes you are
Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't.

And if I'd told you I'd been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcoholic's word?

Oh I can't change what's done is done
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on too
While this part of me is dying
Though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me
I'm trying I'm trying.

She sat down on the floor and said I wish that I was stronger
Right now I feel as fragile as glass.

And I want to believe you
Believe what's held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts that keep on comin' back.

My parents think I'm crazy for hangin' on this long
But there's nothing I want more for us
Than to prove to them they're wrong.

And I don't want to be afraid
I don't wanna think you're lying
And though I haven't found the faith that I need
I'm trying. I'm trying.

He asks do you want me to leave?
Cause if you do you know I will
But she says much to his disbelief
No I love you still
Oh I love you still.

He said I don't know why i've been the fool
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins.

Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said I haven't been the man I want to be
But I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying I'm trying.