No Voice

Dear Jason
There will be tears today
But we'll get through
And you'll be there
I'll leave a chair for you
You made it too
Held your mysteries so close
But I knew, I knew your way
I never found the words to say
Always thought we'd talk one day.

Dear Jason
You can't begin to know
The pain you've caused
How do I
Make sense of what I've gained
Or what I've lost?
What a mess, a perfect mess
Left alone to sort it out
In the sorrow, guilt, and rage
I keep coming back to doubt.

I'd like to start with just a...
If we could take a moment...
If maybe we were silent
Or we had spoken...
I tried to find the words to...
Just the right quotation...
But I must confess I came up empty.

You alone, the Lord most holy
You alone the Lord most high
Hear us now, seal our hearts
And grant our prayers
We bear them in Your name
Leave us one with all done in Your name.

Dear Jason
How did a simple love
Get complicated?
Days crawl by
I ask myself again
"Should I have waited?"
In a world that's quick to judge
I will try to understand
It's so hard to find your way
When you have no voice to guide you.

No voice, no sound
No sound, no words
No words, no song
No song, no heart
One heart, one love
One love, one life
One life, one truth
One truth, one life
One voice.