One Of The Good Guys

Right here you see one of the good guys
One of the nice ones, with sensible drives
What else could I be? I'm one of the good guys
Who play with their children and dote on and pamper their wives.

But there was a night in Hawaii on a business trip
That my mind has sufused with a mystic glow
She was someone's friend and she had this smile
We were on a beach and we walked a while.

And I watched the wind billow in her hair
And I knew we knew there was more to share
I could feel the ground start to go
Like volcanoes starting to blow.

And the waves were loud
We were all alone
We had left the crowd
Not a soul would ever have known.

But I stopped and said no.

'Cause that isn't me, I'm one of the good guys
One of the smart ones, who's virtue survives
Firm as a tree, one of the good guys.

Who trades a flash of heat to build a warmer fire
Denies himself a treat to shoot for something higher
And that's the part that's sweet
That only the good guys know.

That's not the end, as you suspected
Time flipped some pages, I'm now forty-four
There's money to spend, the kids are in college
My wife's back in art school, we just bought a house at the shore.

But sometimes at night, in the stillness, I am wide awake
As the wife I still desire sleeps by my side
I can the wash of the perfume there
As my mind is drowning in billowing hair.

And although I know that my life is blessed
I am teased by thoughts that it's second best
And the visions seen in my head
Of the lives that I could have lead.

They are all still there
I can change my fate
There's no time to spare
I must find them before it's too late.

But I wait and say no.

Hell, why defend all of us good guys?
Strangling in plenty yet whining for more
Truth is, my friend, just between good guys.

It's not which road you take, which life you choose to live in
It's not the choice you make, the longing is a given
And that's what brings the ache
That only the good guys know.