Paradox

Itsu kara ka omotteta tokidoki ki zuiteta
Hoka no hito wo wakaru koto tte kitto muzukashii ne
Hontou ni suki na mono te ni ireta no wa itsu?
Jibun no erabu yume sae mo tama ni miushinaisou

Dareka ni miseru egao mo kimi dake ga mita namida mo
Kitto onaji jibun de
Itsuwari nai sugao datte kono saki
Dore dake kimi wa minuku darou

Dakishimetai toki ni tsutaeyou toshitemo
Tsuyogari na kono kimochi ga nakanaka yurusenai
Lookin' for my place owaranai tabiji no tochuu de
Kiete wa mata ukabu you na itsumo paradox kakaeteru

Sagashitsuzuketa day and night koe ni naranai hodo no cry
Dekiru koto nara subete wo futari de kanjitai
Sore demo jibun nari no ayunde kita katei de
Kotae wo hoshigatte iru sonna paradox kakaeteru

Nagareteku toki no naka dakedo kawaranai nanika ni
Muchuu ni nareru shunkan wa itsumo mamotte itai

Taisetsu na mono subete ni junjo wa tsukerarenakute
Ushinaitakunai kara
Yume ni naku ai ja nai kitto sore dake wa
Futari no shinjitsu

Ashita wo egakeru koto kinou ni yorisou koto
Kyou no kabe koeru tame ni
Dochira mo kakasenai
Lookin' for my place ikisaki mo wakaranai michi wo
Erabihajimeta kokoro ni wa itsumo paradox kakaeteru

Henka wo konomu day and night dakedo tomerarenai cry
Me ni mienai kattou mo kimi dake wa mitomete
Sore demo yowai tokoro misetakunai kimochi wa
Itsumo tonari awase no you sonna paradox ki zuite...

Dakishimetai toki ni tsutaeyou toshitemo
Tsuyogari na kono kimochi ga nakanaka yurusenai
Lookin' for my place owaranai tabiji no tochuu de
Kiete wa mata ukabu you na itsumo paradox kakaeteru
Sagashitsuzuketa day and night koe ni naranai hodo no cry
Dekiru koto nara subete wo futari de kanjitai
Sore demo jibun nari no ayunde kita katei de
Kotae wo hoshigatte iru sonna paradox kakaeteru

Translation

I've been thinking for some time and sometimes I've realised
That it's surely hard to understand other people
When did I find something I truly loved?
Sometimes I feel like I'm even losing sight of the dreams I chose myself

The smiles I show people, and the tears that only you saw
They both surely came from my same self
How much of what's inside me will you see
Even when my expression is frank?

Even though I sometimes come close to telling you how much I want to hold you
My desire to pretend to be strong never lets me
Lookin' for my place, on an endless journey
I'm carrying around a paradox that keeps on coming back

I kept on searching day and night, crying inside
If I can, I want to feel everything with you
But in the course of the steps I've taken
I've carried around a paradox – I want an answer

I always want to protect that moment when I became absorbed in something
That will never change no matter how much time goes by

I can't put all the things that are precious to me in order
I don't want to lose them
This isn't the kind of love where we cry in our dreams
That's sure to be our truth

Talking about the future, embracing the past
We need both these things
To cross todays walls
Lookin' for my place, I don't know where the road I chose leads to
I'm always carrying a paradox in my heart

I love changes, day and night, but I can't stop crying
Only you can see my invisible problems
But a feeling of not wanting to show you my weaknesses
Is always beside me, please see that paradox…

Even though I sometimes come close to telling you how much I want to hold you
My desire to pretend to be strong never lets me
Lookin' for my place, on an endless journey
I'm carrying around a paradox that keeps on coming back

I kept on searching day and night, crying inside
If I can, I want to feel everything with you
But in the course of the steps I've taken
I've carried around a paradox – I want an answer