Path Through Oblivion

Deep in the woods, the night touches my skin
You come along with me, but now you are gone
I'm lost and I'm scared, I keep calling your name
Until my sore voice finally breaks.

You left me alone
And I'm afraid of night
The only thing left
Is the memory of your smile
I keep waiting and I feel cold
No longer as a man.

A hungry apparition sits on my chest
I thought it was you
But it devours me
My mind slips
And the last memories of you
Crush me down
Paralysed
I fear the terrors in my sleep
So I wait.

In place of the sun the clouds hang
Heavy with ink as dark as the woods at night
The ink is dripping in my eyes
Making me blind to the fortune passing by
The noble butterflies of night circle around
The last bright memories of my former life
I keep waking up and falling asleep, switching on and off
As their brightness dimishes
The apathy conquers all.

Months pass, followed by years
Only the grief stays
Bleaches out the trace of human in me
I forgot what her smile looks like
And the winds rule the hollow cage of my ribs
Bells introduce the night
The joy
The ink
The wind
The death.

The heart doesn't lie
Yet I feel like I'm running waist-deep
in water against the current
I fail to understand how I could have survived
There is no point in clinging to living
All the former virtue gets more and more twisted
I don't recognize myself in the mirror
The inner voice I have always listened to
has been silent for a while
Replaced by the hungry spirit's intrigues.

I choke on the emptiness
I'm oblivious
So let me die
Let me join you in oblivion
To leave no trace
I want to rest
To fall asleep with the last thought I hold so dear
I am betrayed
By my own mind
Hostile towards the legacy which I'd hate to leave.

You left me alone
And I'm afraid of night
The only thing left
Is the memory of your smile
I keep waiting and I feel cold
No longer as a man.

A hungry apparition with familiar face
Reminds me of myself
And it devours me
My mind slips
And the last memories of you
Crush me down
Paralysed
I fear the terrors in my sleep
So I wait.