Still

It's been a long time since we last spoke
I still wonder what you're up to
After all the shit we've been through
And I've been spending a lot of time drinking and smoking
Hoping to subdue
The thought of you in my head
So if you're out there somewhere
And if you still even care
Possibly still questioning what is he doing
I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain
Since you've been away
I don't wanna feel anymore
And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine
Just taking my time
Although it appears that I'm strong
It still hurts
There's been a lot of nights when I feel alone
Needed someone to talk to
'Cause I just need to get through
And I've been spending a lot of money
On things that I don't need
Hoping that I'll feel new
But I can't get you out my head
So if you're out there somewhere
And if you still even care
Possibly still questioning what is he doing
I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain
Since you've been away
I don't wanna feel anymore
And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine
Just taking my time
Although it appears that I'm strong
I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain (girl, I've been trying to find a way)
Since you've been away (a way that I can numb this pain)
I don't wanna feel anymore (I don't wanna feel)
And there's probably people telling you
That I'm doing fine (I'm just trying to get you outta my head)
Just taking my time
Although it appears that I'm strong
It still hurts