Suicide Diary

Sullen black and grey sky
The night beckons my death
I want to rest in peace
Pain of solitude twines
Around me and devours me
Tamed memories
The rotting world marks the end.

I smash my head on the wall
While madly shouting
But i still can't forget i'm being myself
A solitude struggling in broken consciousness
I can't get over this oppression.

I see the black wall closing in
On it, nailed all my despair
I have no choice but to be crushed
When i close my eyes
Colorless despair furiously asks me for meaning.
.
Why was i born?
For what should i die?
My existence has no meaning
After all that's the only truth
I can't reach my answer
Rusty, sharp and bloody gloom
Attacks me and destroys my hope
Now i have the end of this needless life.

Rusty, sharp and bloody gloom
Attacks me and destroys my hope
Resistant feelings leave the sound of breath.

1 see the black wall closing in
On it, nailed all my despair
I have no choice but to be crushed
When i close my eyes
Colorless despair furiously asks me for meaning.

Why was i born?
For what should i die?
My existence has no meaning
After all that's the only truth
I can't reach my answer
Rusty, sharp and bloody gloom
Attacks me and destroys my hope
Now i have the end of this needless life.