Shinitai-chan

目が覚めた場所には　白い壁　保健室
屋上に行った記憶は　途中で　思い出せない

me ga sameta basho ni wa shiroi kabe hokenshitsu
okujou ni itta kioku wa tochuu de omoidasenai

Upon regaining consciousness, I was surrounded by four white walls. I was in the school infirmary.
I can only recall halfway through my memory of going to the rooftop.

手を伸ばす君が　居る　届かない
どこまでも伸びてくこの腕でもまだ
あのコを越せなくて

te o nobasu kimi ga iru todokanai
dokomade mo nobiteku kono ude demo mada
ano ko o kosenakute

When I stretch out my hand, you're right there, but I can't reach you.
Even with these arms that can grow at will,
I still can't surpass that girl.

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
君が　止めて　くれる　か　ら
いくつ　キズを　重ねてもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
kimi ga tomete kureru ka ra
ikutsu kizu o kasanete mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because you're kind enough to stop me.
No matter how many times I wound myself, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
泣かせ　たくない　人が居るから
いくつ　キズを　重ねてもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
nakase takunai hito ga iru kara
ikutsu kizu o kasanete mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because I don't wanna make a certain someone cry.
No matter how many times I wound myself, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

ひとりぼおち　隠す　君の　カケラ
アソビが過ぎたみたい　鏡に映った
赤い　瞳で微笑む　姿

hitoriboochi kakusu kimi no kakera
asobi ga sugita mitai kagami ni utsutta
akai hitomi de hohoemu sugata

I'm hiding the pieces of you, all by myself.
Looks like I've gone a little too far. In the mirror
is my own reflection, smiling with red eyes.

ね、生きたい 生きたい ホントの気持ち
届か ないま ま消えたくない
頭上のベニテングは覚えてる
君がどこに

ne, ikitai ikitai honto no kimochi
todokanai mama kietakunai
zujou no benitengu wa oboeteru
kimi ga doko ni

You know, I actually wanna live. I wanna live.
I don't wanna be gone from this world while still unable to tell you how I feel.
The poison mushrooms on the top of my head remember
where you are.

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
君が　止めて　くれるはずだから
何度　記憶　　を消してもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
kimi ga tomete kureru hazu dakara
nando kioku o keshite mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because I'm sure you'd be kind enough to stop me.
No matter how many memories I try to erase, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　死にたい
でももう　死ねない　君がここに　居てくれるからもう寂しくない

aa shinitai shinitai shinitai
demo mou shinenai kimi ga koko ni ite kureru kara mou sabishikunai

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die,
but I can't die anymore. I'm not lonely anymore, since you're here with me.

らーらーら　ららら　ららら　ららら
消えない　痛み　消える　記憶　また　繰り返して　増える傷

raaraara rarara rarara rarara
kienai itami kieru kioku mata kurikaeshite fueru kizu

La~la~la~ lalala lalala lalala
In-erasable pains; erasable memories—the cycle repeats itself, while my wounds go on increasing.