Attachment

To Judith, I owe you some answers
16 to be exact
I took a moment to write these answers
You'll find them all attached.

Okay, "attach" and clicking on it and attaching
I don't expect a response from you
In fact, it's probably best you don't..

I'm not looking for forgiveness
I'm only giving you what you are owed
In the attachment, it's all there in the attachment.

All that's left now is to hit "send"
And the weight of the choice will be gone
Nothing I need to say left unsaid.

Though 16 questions did their job and now this can end
With a PDF full of feelings and deepest regrets
I just have to hit "send".

Oh God, is it weird that I am writing my ex-wife out of the blue?
Are there any answers she could misconstrue?
Of course, she could and of course she will.

Scrutinize my answers, think I'm full of shit
Wonder why it took me years to get this over with
That's fine.

Who cares
Who cares
Not me.

Sent. It's sent. I sent it. I sent you the e-mail with my answers attached.

And now I've sent my final message
And now I've had the final word
This love affair ends with a 3-page PDF on 2017
How absurd.

But I can finally move on now
No more living in the past
No more hoarding all my answers
Each and every single one of them
I left attached.

Here's to never looking back
All my answers are attached.

Here's to never looking back
All my answers are attached.

Here's to never looking back
All my answers are attached.

Here's to never looking back
All my answers are attached.

Here's to never looking back
All my answers are attached.

Okay, it's over
Oh my God, it's really over.