Reality

I have to leave you behind
I know that sounds harsh
But that's the reality
I wish we had our old life
But that shit's impossible
That's just reality.

I should have told you the minute you came
But you sounded distraught standing out in the rain
And I wanted to let you in, swallow your pain
Because that's what I always do.

But I made a pact with my moms
Under no circumstance
Should I hear out Natalie
Unlike you I keep my word
And promises I make become my reality.

You like to live your life blurring the lines
Bending the rules to make yourself look better
But all that I wanted was something concrete
And to know for a fact you are real.

What I know is
I still love you
That's my reality
You know
I'd give anything to wake up with you next to me
You and I spent two years of our lives lost in your lies
Far from reality
And it felt like a dream
'Cause it was.

Why do I always give in?
That is on me to change
That's my reality
I can't do this to myself again
I deserve someone who accepts reality.

I can't imagine rebuilding my life with you
Constantly on the edge of what I know is true
And you would string me along like you always do
Knowing I will never let go.