Figure Me Out

So Craig why are you here.

Sometimes I sympathise with sam?in
Can you elaborate.

Everytime I walk outside of my apartment
Its like trying to walk into an already moving street
Theres always people
Moving quickly in one direction
And sometimes I feel like if I dont plan it just right
I'll mess everything up
And I'll ruin the rhythm of New York city.

I try to live, but it isn't coming easy
'Cause I don't know how
The voice within, muffled, buried in the chaos
Like it can't scream out.

I think in circles like a broken record
Every thought's identical
You can't escape, like you're restricted by the pressure
It's like you're wrapped up in tentacles.

Don't look down, the view is something permanent
Life might whisper, death likes to shout
Don't break down the bridge
Before connecting to
What might be on the other side.

I wanna figure me out.

Everyday never noticing surroundings
Always looking down
In every way, I avoid the city skyline
Or the looming clouds.

Even trees, how they stand there, strong with purpose
Telling me I need to grow
I just see the roots all twisted, strange and tangled
And that's the only me I know.

Don't look down and focus on what's hidden
All your roots grow wildly deep underground
Don't cut down a tree before it lives to see
What might be on the other side.

I wanna figure me out.

I guess I wanna take a minute
I wanna pause a thought
And zoom in on the frame
I'm just putting nothing in it
Until the thought is gone
My frame of mind's the same.

It's like I owe it to myself
To go achieve understanding
And leave with some upper hand, so
I climb back down into the mess
And I'm scared to death
This is an SOS.

"Well, Craig, it sounds to me like you're depressed."

"I see."

I try to live, but it isn't very easy
When you don't know how.

"We'll leave it here for now."

You can't go 'till you know

Don't look down, the view is something permanent
Life might whisper, death likes to shout
Don't break down the bridge
Before connecting to
What might be on the other side.

Don't look down and focus on what's hidden
All your roots grow wildly deep underground
Don't cut down a tree before it lives to see
What might be on the other side.

I wanna figure me out.

I try to live, but it isn't very easy
When you don't know how.