A Song For XX

Doushite naite iru no
Doushite mayotteru no
Doushite tachi domaru no
Nee oshiete.

Itsu kara otona ni naru
Itsu made kodomo de ii no
Doko kara hashitte kite
Nee doko made hashiru no.

Ibasho ga nakatta mitsuka ranakatta
Mirai ni wa kitai dekiru no ka wakarazu ni
Itsumo tsuyoi ko da nette iware tsuduketeta
Naka nai de erai nette homerare tari shite ita yo
Sonna kotoba hitotsu mo nozonde nakatta
Dakara wakaranai furi wo shite ita.

Doushite waratteru no
Doushite soba ni iru no
Doushite hanareteku no
Nee oshiete.

Itsu kara tsuyoku natta
Itsu kara yowasa kanjita
Itsu made matte ireba
Wakari aeru hi ga kuru.

Mou hi ga noboru ne sorosoro ikanakya
Itsuma demo onaji tokoro ni wa irare nai
Hito wo shinjiru kototte itsu ka ura kirare
Hane tsukerareru koto to onaji to omotte ita yo
Ano koro sonna chikara doko ni mo nakatta.

Kitto iron na koto shirisugiteta
Itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsuduketeta
Naka nai de erai ne tte homerare tari shite ita yo
Sonna fuu ni mawari ga ieba iu hodo ni
Warau koto sae kutsuu ni natteta
Hitori kiri de umarete hitori kiri de ikite iku
Kitto sonna mainichi ga atarimae to omotteta.

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Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?

I had no place to live. I couldn't find one
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.

They always said I was a strong child
They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry"
I didn't want those words at all
So I pretended not to understand.

Why are you laughing?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you leaving me?
Please tell me
When did you become strong?
Since when have you felt weakness?
How long must you wait
for the day you understand to come?

The sun is rising. I must go soon
I can't stay in the same place forever.

You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people
I thought it was the same as being rejected
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength
I definitely knew too much.

They always said I was a strong child
They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry"
The more people said things like that
the more even laughing became agony.

I was born alone. I'll go on living alone
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate.