A Song For XX

Doushite naite iru no

Doushite mayotteru no

Doushite tachi domaru no

Nee oshiete

Itsu kara otona ni naru

Itsu made kodomo de ii no

Doko kara hashitte kite

Nee doko made hashiru no

Ibasho ga nakatta mitsuka ranakatta

Mirai ni wa kitai dekiru no ka wakarazu ni

Itsumo tsuyoi ko da nette iware tsuduketeta

Naka nai de erai nette homerare tari shite ita yo

Sonna kotoba hitotsu mo nozonde nakatta

Dakara wakaranai furi wo shite ita

Doushite waratteru no

Doushite soba ni iru no

Doushite hanareteku no

Nee oshiete

Itsu kara tsuyoku natta

Itsu kara yowasa kanjita

Itsu made matte ireba

Wakari aeru hi ga kuru

Mou hi ga noboru ne sorosoro ikanakya

Itsuma demo onaji tokoro ni wa irare nai

Hito wo shinjiru kototte itsu ka ura kirare

Hane tsukerareru koto to onaji to omotte ita yo

Ano koro sonna chikara doko ni mo nakatta

Kitto iron na koto shirisugiteta

Itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsuduketeta

Naka nai de erai ne tte homerare tari shite ita yo

Sonna fuu ni mawari ga ieba iu hodo ni

Warau koto sae kutsuu ni natteta

Hitori kiri de umarete hitori kiri de ikite iku

Kitto sonna mainichi ga atarimae to omotteta

Translation

Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?

I had no place to live. I couldn't find one
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.

They always said I was a strong child
They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry"
I didn't want those words at all
So I pretended not to understand.

Why are you laughing?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you leaving me?
Please tell me
When did you become strong?
Since when have you felt weakness?
How long must you wait
for the day you understand to come?

The sun is rising. I must go soon
I can't stay in the same place forever.

You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people
I thought it was the same as being rejected
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength
I definitely knew too much.

They always said I was a strong child
They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry"
The more people said things like that
the more even laughing became agony.

I was born alone. I'll go on living alone
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate.